Just Got Sweetened

I want some time for someone right now. I am quite busy in the last few days because of lot of dirty works and paper works. By the end of this week, it'll be my time to gather all the learning I'd acquire for the last one and half months of our mid-academic term. I want to hang out with that person, talk to that person every night and personally view the colorful smile in her lovely face. I maybe using flowery terms in this post, but those terms are just evidence on how I hardly find a word to express the gratefulness in me. I maybe very busy in the next hours but I still want to have a time to that person. Because It is such a different feeling, A feeling that after all those bitterness, something that is sweet come into my way. Goodluck to you marmmb in the coming days. Goodluck to my examinations. The test that I badly need to claim the things that I had lost because of being bitter. Again a lot of thanks and a lot of goodlucks for me and for you!



Cheer up!
Goodluck!

How Deep Is Your Love

Keep and Deep

What a wonderful day.
What a damn feeling.
What a way to ease those tedious moments.

It is such a perfect moment to throw all the burden I'd absorb last weekend. I'm so grateful for those people who comfort and support me. Thanks for the time you allotted for me. We all know this is hard, but we need to face this. Truth really hurts. I guess I need to get back my old tough form. I need to be the BEST ME right now, because if I ain't be like that I will be losing a lot of significant numbers in my grade card. I need to be my OLD ME. I never took anyone for granted in my emotional journey last weekend and that is the main reason I can say to myself that,"I deserve to be happy without hurting other people's feeling."

"Happiness is a choice, So choose it wisely."

How Deep Is Your Love

The Acquaintance

A lady noticed the content of myself-acknowledged blogs were more on being emotionally decline, always unhappy and very sentimental. Upon reading her message, I'd frown just little bit. Thinking that she was correct, it is indeed a melancholic page. From that point I'd agree to her, it is time for me change the aura of my post in this blogs. It is time for me to rejuvenate with my post and with my attitude. The process that I'm taking right now is not an easy task to do, but I need to keep going. We all deserve to smile every now and then and live life into fullest. Yesterday seems to be a different day for me. I am kinda excited the whole day and I don't know why. I'm kinda nervous and conscious on the way I look. I'm a little bit rattle and sloppy on every move that I do. And suddenly saw her also frowning and uncalm. The lady I first saw with a facebook account having uncolored profile picture. A lady that is full of gloominess weeks ago, asking her always to smile despite engaging a critical and emotional incident in her life. Asking and Giving advice for something that in the real world I ain't really doing at all. This post is all about happiness, but sarcastically I'm sharing my bitterness in the last eight weeks. But this is different situation on how I escape this loneliness. As a matter of fact, I end that stage already two days ago. Yesterday is the start of another chapter of my life, another chapter in this blogs and another collection of pieces to make a brand new puzzle. That lady told me three things, first I need to remove the mask in my face, secondly to pick-up my lost and forgotten heart and lastly to ask for the coming of my happiness. I just realize moments ago, are you the genie? How I wish you can grant me another set of wishes. Another three, four and even ten more. I want to be happy not only in terms of having someone by my side again. I want to be happy with someone that will never let me down, never take me for granted and never left me hanging solely elsewhere. I know it is impossible to have one, but who knows? Maybe she's just right there starting also to smile just like me. I just wanna share the half of this happiness to you. Yes! It is you marmmb.

Gracias señorita.
Thanks for listening my sad stories.
As I throw it all away right now.

Happy

Stuck in Reverse

Books, Investments, statistics, ads and movies are the definition of my whole day. I need to finish a lot of paper works because I hate doing dirty works. A friend told me that this is the "graduation era". An environment where everyone seems so busy, a complicated moment in time and a pressure pack mind and body. I want trials of course, because I always assure myself to step up into that challenge for my own benefit and to be competent enough. I'm into this place before, I know I can manage it. I need to be Pressure-free for the next hours to put all the things in my mind into actions. I need to read, read and read again. I need to solve, practice and configure my settings again for me to work fine and smoothly. But I wonder why I can't do it instantly, in just a matter of flip of my finger, as I hear the song in the background. I badly needed some sort of a motivation. A person, an idea or a thing will do I guess. So please, just give me one because I really needed to get back on the track as soon as possible. Help me please!

Is there really someone have the time to try to fix me right now?




Fix You

Fall away, Far away

Oh I really miss this thing. Two weeks of stressful information overload and physically worn-out on those sleepless nights. Feasibility, Case study and Moving On process were the sources of my angst for almost a month right now. Additionally these latest development academically, the pressure just got back inside my veins and my whole system. And it is so hard for me. I want something good right now to come into my life to wash away all these sufferings. I wish there would be someone to lean on. I ain't missing those old days, I just miss being in a place where I share my stories for the whole day and for that person to react and comfort me with those anxious moments. I just misses the feeling to be cared and to be loved by someone whom you really care and love so much too.

As I leave you all these emo line...

"I guess you have no idea how much you hurt me. No idea how much the wounds you’ve caused me. No idea how you took me for granted. And no idea how much pain I felt when you didn’t catch me when I fell in love with you."

Cobra Starship - Good Girls Gone Bad