An Angel

I really dream of someone special will come into my life
Somebody who would truly inspires me
Somebody who could motivates me to strive,
Someone who can lift my spirits and fly.

Are you an angel?
You looks so pure and sincere
In my ears your such a mystic bell
With sound that I always wanted to hear.

I’m scared to reach out my hands up there
Thinking you didn’t like the way I look down here
Your so blessed and pleasant in my eyes
But wanting you in my life, makes myself break down and cry.

I know we can’t be
And it is truly bitter to me
He have his plans for me
He only Knows, if we can still be.

Im happy that you came across into my life
Even though at first it cuts me like a knife
I’m grateful for the scar you brought to me,
To meet an angel that is full of honesty.

In my heart, you are such a different being
I know I have a lot of reasons for living
One of them is to see you keep on smiling
On which serves as a line for me to keep on breathing.

Always remeber you’re such a very special angel in my eyes
That you made me smile even though you bid your goodbyes
Thanks for the wonderful light you brought
Thank you for appreciating the care that I always thought.

Veinte : A Tribute For My Twenty Years Of Being Alive

Twenty years. 20 yrs.

Twenty years seems to be only a joke. So fast, so cool and quite complicated. Kinda absurd, full of angst, but a lot of smiles and joys. I’m so grateful I am 20 by now. Quite matured though kinda childish. That is what I am.

My twenty years here in this place was significantly valued by me. I know I cry so much, crying out loud every time I’m in pain. Shouting the words of joy whenever I am happy. Life seems to be very simple though quite complicated, by means of people expectations, thoughts about others and especially the unexpected feeling on the things we used to do without knowing that we’d already hurting other on the way we act.

Let me give you 20 reasons why I am here in this world and still kicking, these notable persons, things, events and ideas are all dedicated to myself for being enough strong in my wonderful twenty years above this world.

Here is my TOP 20 of my Life so far..

20 - 7305 days
- It has been 7305 days living in this world full of love. Im so thankful to be loved. Thank you.

19 - God
- He should be my number right? But He’d already know that. I just include Him in here, because He’s already
- He is the one and only reason why I am alive, still breathing. Lord, Thank you for making me like this. Thanks for creating me.

18 - Family - They should be my foremost reason aside from God.
- But they already know how I treasure them. Numbers are not important though it is Love the most important thing.
- Thank you Tito, Mama, Lola, Lolo, Yong & Ila. Love you all guys!

17 - Mary Claire “Maya” Aguilar
- First Crush
- At the age of 5 she exposed me on how love should be.
- We were still in touch by now, quite impossible right, but I’ve tried my best to have a communication to her.
- After 10 years of parting ways, last year I had a line to communicate again to her. I’m so grateful I do.
- Currently a painter/photographer/vocalist of Asking Maria Band, rock on girl!

16 - Pen / Paper
- My outlet in half of my life.
- Writing seems to be my favorite part whenever I am sad and blue.
- In writing I am different, I can escape from this world for a while.
- Thanks for having this skills, thank God!

15 - Libra
- I’ve been reading my guidelines in this area at this zodiac.
- So far, very good. I hope better in my next 20 years.

14 - Saint Mary’s College of Meycauayan
- The place I’ve known kinds of people.
- I’ve spend 7 years in this school, I’ve met my ideals, my benchmarks, my rivals and my true friends.
- I am proud to be a Marian

13 - Cooking
- My Top Frustration.
- Seems to be my dream in my 20 years here in this world.
- Avid fan of cooking so much. Also eating. Of course, we all do.

12 - Basketball
- My 2nd Frustration.
- I wanted to play professionally though I'm not given the chance, I still looking my self in the future also in this field.
- Even not a player, I wanted to be a part of a league that will remember me as a intellectual being, born for basketball.

11 - University of the East-Caloocan
- Not my ideal School though I still studying here.
- Not the best in the world. But the Best in my heart.
- Not a best choice to study but I made a right choice

10 - Petix Group
- College Life seems to be abnormal at start, but you made it different guys.
- Experiences of ours are truly unique.
- My College life become an integral part of me, not only on being a CPA, if luckily I would pass, but as a true person.

9 - Abigail Fernando
- Elementary Ideal Girl.
- We used to be partners in academics, playing times and other things that child do.
- You taught me little things as a child.
- Love seems to be one of that.
- I’m grateful your the first for whom I’ve experience to love. To love seriously.

8 - Jackson G. Pangilinan
- Comic Quasimodo Person
- He really knows the best in me
- Seems to be no concern but truly a wise person in my perception.
- Very true person

7 - Marlo Plucena
- My one and Only Long Lost friend.
- He is my rival academically
- Academics seems to be fine to me just before you came, you really give me a blow bro, Your the best!

6 - Danielle Robert “Borgy” J. Sinaban
- The Artist
- A very good friend of mine.
- Competitor academically in highschool but it just a friendly fight.
- He is the One. The Chosen One, my best male best friend.
- Thank You bro!

5 - Chynna Marie Dionisio
- aka Hobby Girl
- My favorite college crush
- Even though it didn’t work well she’s my present Ideal Lady.
- Intelligent in Academics/Alcohols
- She’s my favorite college girl in my life.
- So proud I’ve met her.

4 - Prudence
- Of course The POK-U’s.
- I share my funniest moments in my 20 years with you guys.
- Miss you all guys.

3 - Princess A. Francisco
- My Broken Love.
- My High School Ideal Girl.
- I hurt her so much.
- She’s my best friend
- I hope we still fix things, wanted to give all the happiness things to you.
- I dream of your happiness. Your universal Happiness.
- Because i know I didn’t give it back to you.

2 - Marjorie Reauco ” Joy ” O. Muhi
- First Girlfriend
- We’re good friends by now, right now an Aussie. So thankful to her cause I learned to love for the first time.
- She taught me to love and to cry so much.

1 - Ms. A
- I’ve known her for so many years.
- Always in there in college.
- I’ve never notice her as a special person to me until this semester.
- She’s not that attractive. but she really has the sweetest personality that I've never notice in my five in UE.
- I wanted to know her better. If time will be given, I definitely show all the things I’m saying.
- I really feel this thing not because I doesn’t have anything doing right now, not being bored, but as a person who truly have this feeling towards a girl at this present time, sharing my 7305th day with a girl that is simple, and a girl that I truly like.

20 notable person and things aren’t enough to sum up my twenty years in life. Thank You aren’t enough to say so. I’m very proud I’ve met all those things and person, Very grateful on the special and little things that occur that honed me to be a better person. Love seems to be the key in everything here in earth. I know I'm so blessed that many persons love me, I know I also loved so much, so much, yes, so much smiles, yes, so much so much i guess. A lot of things are such a wonderful blessing to me, friends and families are part of it, frustrations and places make me a matured person. I guess it it part by now after 20 years to let go of myself, on my own to be MAN enough to enter another 20 years of my life as a more matured and responsible type of person.

Again.

So much thank you to all.

See you in my life for the next 20 and more years of it.

God bless!

Bob Marley - Oh, Baby I love Your Way

Again

I think I meet her again. The person i really waited for the longest time of my life. She seems to be very pretty, quite simple and truly cheerful. I know I really like her at this point of time. I can do everything for her. I can be everything she want me to be. I like her so much. I maybe at this point so much, many times, though it all give me such as damn kind of pain.I never want that to repeat again. I just hate to be in that gloomy stage again.

Again, this will test my learnings on the past. Does I really learned or not? I badly wants this things to go my way, my plans. It such a wonderful time to feel that someone gives you the reason why you should be the best at all times. It such a great way to release all the pressures and burdens in your heart everytime I think of her. God really gave us the special meaning on how gifts aren’t always seen nor touch. Magic seems to be sparkled every time I’d close my eyes as I see her face. As i pray, that she would give me my best chances ever in my life, not again, but for the first time.

I’m willing to wait. As she gathers the thoughts of my best confessions to her. I am not disappointed on what I have said. I guess informality is the only thing I’ve done wrong. Guts seems to be again out of my element. But I swear to God. I like Ana so much, she gives me the best reason why I should be in this kind, in this place, and at this time. She makes my world turn differently rather than before. She’s the girl I really wanted. The eyes seems great. Attitude wise so okay, the charm, her sweetness completes her package.

If you just only know how much you mean to me right now as I wish I will always feel this kind. I’m so glad I really meet you. I wish there could be more time in the future as things go on and develops. I like you Ana so much. You mean very different for me, I know this is love. But history aren’t in favor of me. I learn so much, i wish I could do better right now. Im numb already for heartaches, I cannot wait for this time to come. I’m so immature before. I wish I already got the best remedies now. As I hope,By the end of this I will not say the word, I hated so much, the word, Again.

Excitement or Nervousness?

I'm waiting for this thing to happen for the last two years of my life here in college. after the angst of being stuck in there for 6 agonizing months, I get back. back with vengeance though. My greatest moments academically were happened this last year and so my downiest moments.

after a year I'm again on that moment reminiscing my frustrations. I know I'd expected too much for myself. I have a lot of better plans last year, but ended with a failure. But I know I shouldn't stop in here. I know everything will be okay in the future. for the meantime,just move on. Go on. Try again. God has his better plans for me, so better wait and live life into the fullest.

I never had them for two years right now. I don't know how should make my proper adjustments for me not to look awkward on their eyes. Am I still welcome or not? Should i talk to them just like before or not? Should i act parallel with my feelings or not? Oh! damn! It such a difficult thing to figure out. But I have bigger problem compare to “THEIR” than to “HER”.

I knew she make me feel worst upon saying those lines a year ago. But who am Ii to blame her. I am just a man who’d fell. Im just a man, and she’s the lady. Well feelings are already crush though I had another chance to redeem my long lost days. Will this be the right time for me? God, please give me some omens. I'm a bit nervous on how i work things out properly by this semester. Lot of things shall be settled though I don't know where should I start. I know Id still had the feelings for her. It never dies. but we are already okay in this kind. But i also know that I had another thing in my mind. And that is to pursue what I've started. Oh…give me signs please. I cant decide. I just cant.

We are good right now compare when I'M just a stranger to you last time. Should i take this opportunity for granted or not? Will I or Will ain't? whew! I'm excited to have a closer look at you for the next 6 months again but I'm also nervous that you don't want me close to you again for another half year of your college life.