Excitement or Nervousness?

I'm waiting for this thing to happen for the last two years of my life here in college. after the angst of being stuck in there for 6 agonizing months, I get back. back with vengeance though. My greatest moments academically were happened this last year and so my downiest moments.

after a year I'm again on that moment reminiscing my frustrations. I know I'd expected too much for myself. I have a lot of better plans last year, but ended with a failure. But I know I shouldn't stop in here. I know everything will be okay in the future. for the meantime,just move on. Go on. Try again. God has his better plans for me, so better wait and live life into the fullest.

I never had them for two years right now. I don't know how should make my proper adjustments for me not to look awkward on their eyes. Am I still welcome or not? Should i talk to them just like before or not? Should i act parallel with my feelings or not? Oh! damn! It such a difficult thing to figure out. But I have bigger problem compare to “THEIR” than to “HER”.

I knew she make me feel worst upon saying those lines a year ago. But who am Ii to blame her. I am just a man who’d fell. Im just a man, and she’s the lady. Well feelings are already crush though I had another chance to redeem my long lost days. Will this be the right time for me? God, please give me some omens. I'm a bit nervous on how i work things out properly by this semester. Lot of things shall be settled though I don't know where should I start. I know Id still had the feelings for her. It never dies. but we are already okay in this kind. But i also know that I had another thing in my mind. And that is to pursue what I've started. Oh…give me signs please. I cant decide. I just cant.

We are good right now compare when I'M just a stranger to you last time. Should i take this opportunity for granted or not? Will I or Will ain't? whew! I'm excited to have a closer look at you for the next 6 months again but I'm also nervous that you don't want me close to you again for another half year of your college life.