Is it right to expect for something you dreamt of for a very long time? I guess it isn't that bad. But I'm doing it in a insensible manner again. I cannot dissect things well. Someone said, I'm too blind and too deaf inside of me for not realizing what things are happening in this situation today. The exact feeling of that statement represent what I feel right now. I cannot blame myself for interpreting some facts that are known to me in a uncharacteristic way. Did I misinterpret it anew? Why I'm always like this, very assuming paired with a lot of expectations. I cannot take the fact that I need to leave something I really work hard for the last two years of my life.
From the day I first met a lovely lady in my Business Mathematics subject, for the first time I talk to her in our school library and for the first time in my life to encounter a great lady dressed with her own elegance through his simplicity, I really dreamed to be her man someday, and her as my beloved lady. Two years are now about to end, and still I seemed to be hopeless. I cry so hard wishing that my long time dream will come into life. But my tears aren't enough to call her mine. How many times we argue a lot things about my childish feeling towards her. I never ever got mad to her even somehow way back she treat me I'm just a stranger, a stranger looking at her all day long. Praying that someday we can start something from scratch, make my own love story with her and end it happily. Dreams are not yet come into life, but I'm still hoping somehow. I know someday, It'll be so tiring for me to give myself a part of me for someone who cannot do the same thing for me. I just keep a thing telling my heart and mind repeatedly. "I am just a human, all things on me have its own limitations. What if I'd come to that point already?" Do I need to return the lost pieces of me? or Do I need to gamble the last remaining pieces of me, for expecting that right now she is acting exactly the way I do for her?
At the end of the day, come what may. I am grateful I met someone like you, who change me the way I was before you came into my life. As "I do cherish you, for the rest of my life". I love you even if you think I'm not that sincere. Again this is me waited for so long to say and prove how much I love you, can't help myself to scream, I LOVE YOU.
I Do
Anyway highway, mukang you're okay na!
ReplyDeleteUnlike before na super ka sa pagiging emo noh.
Basta everything happens for a reason.
Nakakatawa nga lang kase habang binabasa ko to, narealize ko iba talaga feelings ng lalake sa babae. Sabi nga nila, pwedeng sa lalake ngayon ay si Perla, bukas si Nora naman, sa susunod na bukas si Perla kung gusto pa ni Perla, tapos sa susunod si Nora ulit kung ayaw pa namang bumitaw ni Nora. Sa girls like me kase ngayon si Jose at habang mahal pa kami ni Jose, si Jose lang. Si Pedro na walang pag-asa, pwede pa namang partneran si Perla or si Nora. Paikot-ikot lang, haha. Kaya bagay talaga lalake sa babae.
Ay teka may connect ba ko? Meron yan. Hahah. Magulo ka kase eh.. parang si Perla at si Nora kase AHAHHA