Missing You

I still can find this much needed motivation for me to strive harder for this upcoming examination week. Lot of things are still in my mind above those academic genres that I needed to set aside especially this week. I know I'm feeling better than a year or a semester ago, but it doesn't seems that I ain't that well motivated to study. I know this should be at the top of priorities, but how can I configure those things if myself telling me, she's also now my second priority. I am emotionally depressed. Emotionally tortured and Emotionally afraid that I will be losing someone that I don't really have.

I am so scared of lot of stuffs. Time is my worst enemy by now. She give me a lot of reasons why should I be like this, better than what I am before. She is the best thing that happened to me here in college. I cannot afford to lose her for just another time. Not this time, not anymore. God truly define that gifts are not always the ordinary type of it. She came to my life unexpectedly. She changed a lot of things about me without knowing it. By now, I wanted to return the favor to her. I hate to see her frowning about those not worth it persons. I never wanted her to see so gloomy, because I want her to see so blooming. I wanted to become a part of her, still waiting for her so much. In Seven Months, time probably come to an end but not permanently. If still we don't see each other in each other lives as one , I still promise her, that I will still be waiting. Time after time. I just wanted her to know that I am waiting for the right time until she will be free. Having freedom of everything especially for one thing that I'd always praying for her to come to,her universal happiness. She is my happiness. Still wishing to be her man someday. Because I want her to be my lady.


Missing you so much, my angel.