REQUIEM

This is my first formal day of my vacation.


It feels like a new life for me. Burdens are still bothering me this past five days I guess. But there is nothing I can even do to fix those things. A lot of immaturities occur this week. A lot of awkward actions have done, and also awkward reactions too. I know this burden really kills me day by day. But there is nothing I can do about it so far. Explanations, Frustrations and Commotions are bit exaggerated in this problem I guess, and I'm so sick about it. I always wanted to fix things as soon as possible, but I guess with this, I might fail. To whom it may concern; I am really sorry about what stupidity that I did. I can't explain it any further because you ain't listening to me. But I will say this once again, I'M SORRY. Forgiven or not, its up to you, but I guess this is my right path to fix it, and I did my very best and my part in this problem. I truly disappoint you about this unmanly manner. "I am a man without a word." . But please, I am just human, I'm able to commit mistakes beyond my intention. I did things with the thought that it'll be okay with you, but I'm wrong. I disappoint you so much. I disappoint them so much. I disappoint myself again, SO MUCH. and this thing is like stabbing my chest with my eyes wide open. What things should I be doing right now? I can't think anymore. I can't produce any ideas about it anymore. It truly kills me right now. I'm so frustrated. I can't help myself to cry. Don't want to hear the word I hated for so long, not this time, PLEASE.