For a Princess

Why is it we need to lose something in our life, for us to realize their worth? Is the feeling of losing them at first place enough to bring them back into our life? Why is it we realized their importance too late? Does it mean to say we need first to get hurt before us to be contented and happy? Why is it in my case, I lose someone that is very close in my heart on which I can never ever have her back again. It has been four years since I enter these school of sufferings, regrets and disappointments. I wish by now, I could graduate already. For the reason of, I learned my mistakes in difficult way. How I wish I could turn back the hands of time and be by your side during those days. I know you have your life by now, A Life that I hadn't given into you. For my pleasures, the only thing I wanted is to see you smiling at all times. How many times I've said this line already, but I ain't stopping to say it anew.

"I just wish you universal happiness you ever wanted, and I am sorry for not being a part of that happiness, I'm so sad that I disappoint you. I also disappoint myself so much too. You will be forever have the biggest space occupied in my heart. For the time that I let you go, I don't mean it, but I did. I know I'm not worth it for the love you gave to me, but until now that four years were already gone, just never put away the idea that once in a while, I am deeply in love with you at the wrong place and at the time on which you'd loved me back just like how I was loved you at first place."

Is it worthy that I've learned the lessons in this way?
I think I deserved all of those things.
After four long years, I know I've learned so hard about it.
I just loved to finish this bitter course right now.


To be dedicated to one and only PRINCESS that I know.
Congratulations, you made it!
Cheers!